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I AM NOT GOING TO DELETE THIS BLOG ACCOUNT FOR ALL THE MEMORIES I WROTE BUT I WILL BE BLOGGING SOMEWHERE ELSE FROM TODAY ONWARDS . THANK YOU FOR READING :)

There is always a tear behind every good smile .

I can do whatever I want and no one can stop me .

But can I tell you how much I love you ?

When you lay next to me 

and stare directly into my eyes,

with your hands wrapped around me, 

wordless, 

I miss that .

The first thing that I think about when I wake up is you . And as I go through the day, you're always in my mind . I'll reminisce of the times we had, thick and thin, to sleep . And when I'm sound asleep, you appear in my dreams . I wake up the next day doing the same thing . There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you . I wonder, do you think about me ?

I look at the spaces between my fingers wondering will you ever fill them up ? I see people kissing and hugging and again, I wonder, will I ever get to taste your lips again and feel the warm hug you usually give ? Time isn't going to heal us . What I have to acknowledge is that your heart, isn't mine anymore . You sounded so happy nowadays and your happiness means everything to me . So if you're happy without having me in your life, stop taking the time . I want you to be happy, everyday, every hour, ever minute and every second of your life . Even if it means you moving on .

 

Happy Birthday ME !

No matter how much I want to forget my 19th birthday, I still can't . Long story short, I had the worst birthday ever . However, on the 2nd of April 2011, the gals and the lads changed everything . I am grateful of who and what I have in life . I wish "The Usuals" would stay as friends through thick and thin . Thank you, you know who you are . May we have more memories to keep !

Meet baby Lumix ! Mom bought it for my birthday . She is so unpredictable ! I sent her some hints of me wanting a camera but she might ignored the hints . And a day ofter my birthday, we went to the Home Deco and she decided to buy me one . I swear that made my day . I saw the relief smile she flashed at me when she saw me smiling . It was .. priceless . Thank you mom . I don't love you because of the things you gave . I love you simply because you are my mother, the person who gave me life :')

I am not good with words, nor will I ever be .

But, all I know is that :-

As long as you're with me, I will try with all the power that I have - to show you,

As long as you're with me, I will prove to you what I have for you is real,

As long as you're with me, I will secure your insecurities,

As long as you're with me, I will accept you for who you are, old or new, you are still you,

As long as you're with me, I will never go elsewhere,

As long as you're with me, I will let you stare into my eyes while I tell you I love you .